Ever since I can remember there has always been some sort of problem with my belly. Every morning my mum would give me a glass of milk (from Italian background, so my parents never ate breakfast) and I would struggle with it.
I always had anxiety and as I finished high school I started to develop Raynauds disease. I had no confidence in my specialist so decided to stop going to him and just deal with it. Also around this time I stopped eating pasta as it was giving me problems. I found I could still eat pizza and bread though so I continued that and just substituted rice for the pasta.
I would always shy away from protein foods (unless I made them myself) as for some reason I thought they would give me food poisoning and I would load up on wholemeal/grainy breads (thinking yep I'm super healthy), to help keep me full. I would eat bread, fresh bread, rotis, muffins etc and could never understand how people could drop all this food and still function.
Most of the time I felt weak, had no energy and suffered from poor concentration. I thought carbs was what I needed to function. I had low iron, but taking iron tablets didn’t make any difference.
I have also never been overweight. I am 153cm and always been between 42-45kgs. I would always be in the toilet though and would sometimes see the poo chart on the back of toilet doors and would think how can I ever get my poo to look like the healthy one? I eat so well. Fruit, veggies, margarine, low fat dairy (I would have lots of dairy), grainy breads or sourdough, some lean cuts of meat and minimal fat. I have always also been really fit, go the gym 3, 4 times a week and teach dance. Why isn't my poo resembling the healthy one in the chart?! I just didn't get it.
With all three of my pregnancies I only ever put on about 5kgs and had tiny little babies. When I had my second child, it all went pear shaped. I developed AntiC (an autoimmune blood condition where the body detects the baby as a foreign object and starts attacking it) and a year later I got thyroiditis.
I saw a specialist which tested me for celiac, which came back positive (I had no idea how the two were linked and was upset at the thought of possibly never having bread again). So I under went an endoscopy. This time the test for celiac came back fine so we celebrated by having pizza.
I then fell pregnant with my 3rd child and the AntiC came back; this time more serious for my unborn baby and I had to be monitored closely. I found that when I ate pizza or bread I would now find it difficult to swallow, which scared the crap out of me.
But I kept eating wheat… even with Doctors now telling me I had a wheat sensitivity, even with me not getting my healthy poos, even with my body rejecting bread, the universe was trying to tell me and I still blindly went on my way!!
With two slices of fruit bread in my bag the one, from Bakers Delight with the cinnamon sugar on top (yep they told me it was super healthy), I sat there and listened and listened and listened. Something that stuck out for me was when Pete said it doesn't matter if it's white or grainy bread it's all sugar and it all does the same thing in your body (wow I thought really!! There goes the low GI theory I was following). I loved all the guest speakers and it all started to make sense.
I wanted to wake up in the morning and feel amazing, I wanted to not feel like crap anymore. I decided I wanted to give it a go.
So the next day I slowly cut out bread. It made me feel like crap the first few days until I started to increase my fats.
Increasing fat to lose weight or to be healthy was such a weird notion to me. But it worked, half an avo or some EVOO or coconut yogurt and it made me feel full.
It's been almost a year now and I had my bloods done a few weeks ago. I was told they were really good including my iron!! Such a happy moment!!
I'm no longer scared of protein and I load up on it now along with good fats and LOTS of veggies. I am getting more comfortable with different flavours and food and I can't believe how easy it is and how I don't miss bread anymore. I eventually gave up dairy a few months later and OMG!! Even a better difference!
I now feel amazing when I get up, even at 6am when my baby wakes up. I have so much energy even in the afternoon that I don't need to reach for the chocolate. I don't need bread to fill me up (and never ever want to eat it again knowing now what it did to me- bad bread!!) Plus, I finally got my healthy poos!!!!! Yay such a moment for me.
I don't have anxiety anymore AT ALL!! I never even knew it could be linked to gut issues. I am happy all the time!! I love life now; everything is so exciting and new that I sometimes feel like I could burst!! I am also leaner, more toned, dark circles under my eyes have gone, hair is thicker and healthier, skin has cleared up and I'm on my way to finally been able to have a 6pack (something I've always wanted but never been able to get).